Enrichment Issues

I spent nearly 20 years of my life doing things that I am asked and expected to do. I learned things that I am supposed to learn, which everyone around me expected me to learn. I was (am) living in a socially engineered world. I was expected to do well in my academic. The system of meritocracy has confined my full potential instead of unleashing it.

I have never (or little known to have) study something for the sake of learning something new. Perhaps, I forgot that I actually did that when I was younger. When I was hungry for knowledge, when I was curious about the world, when I knew I would be happy to learn new things.

I am trying so hard to be back to that period of time, to that kind of mindset which would constantly keep me in the mood of learning. But here am I in a university, feeling inadequate in every field, unable to find time to improve on things that I WANT TO. I failed to enrich myself with my passions. There are times when I don’t even know what I can be in the future, nor what I am good at. My time is occupied by things and curriculum planned for me. No one compensates my 20+ years and yet My parents and I are paying for the loss of my precious time.

Perhaps that is why those successful entrepreneurs and geniuses are drop-outs from school. Of course, drop-out does not guarantee you a successful life.

But since I have already paid the bill, I shall continue this journey for 3 more months. I still have to study for my quiz tomorrow. Make full use out of those plans to minimize the loss for myself.

Life of a puppet. How sad.






  1. Not really wasted, Zoe.
    I was a sorta ‘dropout’ – leaving school at 16. “No hope” was one of my teachers comments.
    Water off a duck’s back.
    Two reasons I didn’t bother with university:
    1) My parents – actually my grandparents (living on meagre pensions) as I discovered when I was 14 – had nothing. Nada. What they had, they gave me. I sensed the relief when I was accepted at the second-best Grammar school in the district (Leamington College) – going to the best (Warwick School) would have pushed finances over breaking point.
    2) University. Does the Uni-bit mean uni-versal? Thinking Uni-laterally?
    Unable to decide/think for myself?
    OK, now what.
    Well, now I’m a member of Mensa*, and have been a manager of a software company, then spent 15 years with Nokia, last 10 as a Senior Specialist, travelling to – oh, maybe 26 countries. As a teacher.
    Moved from England, I now live in Finland.
    Wasted? Nah.
    * Didn’t stop me blowing up one Pi a couple of days ago…Mensa is a group of highly intellegent people who meet in pubs to drink themselves stupid.

    1. Well, I do appreciate whatever that is given to me. But while I have been following the “planned structure” too closely, I lose the freedom to explore and be what I could be. It sorts of force me into the working class – as a practical, order-following engineer.
      Like yourself, leaving school at 16 and yet becoming so successful in life now. That always inspires me and I want to break free from the structure someday. 🙂
      Thanks for dropping a comment here!

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